Dear Friends,

I want to first welcome you to what is certain to be a roller coaster ride! I actually, pray that isnt the case but since Im human (last time I checked anyways) I have a pretty strong feeling it will at the very least have its bumps!

First a about me...Im 32 yr old single mom of an amazing little girl, who is full of love and spunk! I am a renewed Christian! I was first saved in the 8th grade and for awhile I lived the life, however pressures and curiosity got the best of me as it does most of us! I didnt start "partying" until after high school but man did I make up for it over the next few years! I lost complete control and the most important thing was going out and getting as drunk as possible, come home sleep it off and do it all again the next night. I also became ruled by sex.  I didnt care who, what, where or when as long as I could get it. I praise God now that nothing devastating ever happened to me! In August 2007, I found out I was pregnant.  I was in a horrible spot. I had 2 men who could be father and I didnt know for sure which one it was.  I had a pretty good idea (Thank God I was right) but I couldnt be for sure.  One was a one night stand. The other a dear friend who I had dated on and off  for over 5 years.  (FYI-it was the 2nd one) My daughter was born in April and I raised her alone the first year and half of her life.  Her father finally came around and Im happy to report that he is a good man, and a good father to her.  The day she was born, my life changed in so many ways. There was the normal "baby" changes but more importantly there were the ETERNAL changes.  I truly believe God gave me this child to save my life.  She is my angel.  It was not an easy road but I'm eventually getting there.  I did change my partying ways and today I can truly say I have complete control of my drinking habits! I can go meet some friends, have a few drinks and go home, I do not have to get blitz and I do not drink hardly at all anymore. And sex does not rule my life anymore, but more on that later! 

My next battle was depression. I had covered up it so well with alcohol and sex, I didnt realize it was even there until I didnt have the boozy glaze over my life! (I still was under the influence of sex at this point) I still allowed myself to be used but it was now my men I knew and trusted and they were never around my daughter.  I didnt value myself. The realization I was depressed started with a case of shingles followed by panic attacks. I still denied it for awhile until one day I was driving down I-40 at 70 mph and thought "I wonder what will happen if I just jerked my wheel to the right and crashed this car?" Another big thank you to the man above for holding my wheel tight and not allowing me to give in! The next day I went to the dr. I was put on medication and after many weeks, I started to feel human again. It has taken many years, many ups and downs but I am happy to let you know I am off all medication and very happy! Dont get me wrong I have bad days but God gives me the strenght to get through!

So are you running in the other direction yet, thinking this woman is a whacko? TMI!!!!!  Please dont!! I am dying to share my story with you (it turns out awesome I promise) up to the point it is at now and then what is to come! I know it is going to be mind blowing!! So please join me......

Til then~
Love and Blessing~
Erin